BETWIXT THE VOIDS
«l'esprit de l'escalier»
"I advocate feminism."
-[hyper-] masculinity/ties and male-posturing
-heavy shit (tunes or otherwise)
-radical politics and thought
-deconstruction as a form of recreation
-living a conscientious, purposeful, and abstract thought-filled life...
he/him/his & they/their/their's
//qveer shit//qveer aesthetics
*white, bearded, AMAB, masculine-presenting,queer-identifying, genderqueer. college-educated (B.A. in women's and gender studies, philosophy, and queer studies)
employed, raised upper-middle class, medically-insured, currently-"able"-bodied/-minded, medicated, hydrocephalic. atheistic & politically anti-western/capitalistic/(liberal) christianity
inna hetero-presenting, open partnership
today is just kind of bullshit; i’m over it… i just
don’t give a shit about anything and i’m really excited to just fvckn lie in bed for the rest of the evening not doing anything, unless i want to…
today can go hang out with mitt romney, fvckn shit.
I want to get tattoos and get laid
we will go to bed huddling different lovers close to us
only to be thinking about each other
and how we wish we were holding the other, instead
I don’t know the way these things work is there a way to turn them down? … Um…
So much for stress relief; fvck it… I need a Xanax and a burger and Vice doc.’s… I tried, I tried… But the damn Cop in my head has me feeling like an asshole… at 3:30/4:00 in the afternoon. Fvckn-a.
"I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself."
holy shit: this is fascinating… thinking about culture generally, about self-portraiture, focal points, reflection of image/s, relfection/s of life, of light/s, of color/s, framing, training to see things as framed/delineated… purpose behind a picture, potential grand expanses of that which is on ‘the “other side”’ of a mirror’s reflection (secret window or w/e)
my mind is whirring